I care when I'm drunk!

Year 2009, yeah new year for all of us, that shit blame game is still being played in great zeal by both the governments of two nations so Bad :(. It seems my city's political system is collapsed and beyond common man comprehension so Bad :(. There is no hope and have no idea whats going on. A babu sitting on his shit chair is uttering a word about "Gandhi" he expects from helpless citizen of this nation well so Bad:(. Minorities are being targeted by f^%$#*&%king Hindustani mob in some part of MY NATION so bad:(. World is ready to consume its own sons.

I sit on chair for dinner, my mom comes and serve me the tasty dinner, she is so patient and beloved, my dad -who has come a long way and still determine to secure my soul(s)=sitting right next to me enjoying his old 70s movie on 21st century technology God Bless them. My Friends who have been with me for so many years and now hardly see each other....God save their souls:). I think about my past achievments (really) and close my eyes ohhh world is so awesome

When tomorrow comes , I'll hardly care about anything, again I'll close my senses and wait for miracle to happen. I'll again choose to pick up fight with myself. I'll hardly think of gone people. I care When I'm drunk!

prisoner of passion

I wish I could disappear from this city forever. I wish I had power to fly. I pick up my keys and walk out of my room with enthusiasm and end up going no where. A desperate phone calls to buddies :( , but I know one place where I can go comfortably, my room.

I have companion who keep me busy all the time, large collection of movies collected painstakingly over the years & still updating my database. A new movie every day. Perfect idea to celebrate evening without relying on so called buddies. I'm prisoner of my passion. I can hardly think of days when I haven't watched any movie. I have watched enough movies that I can write book on it oho! but I won't make any stupid mistake :O .

Recently I came across very good movie and by far it is the best movie I ever watched. I love the performance of every character and it seems movie is impeccable. Its a story of football player who is self centered, over confidence and wants to be numero uno in and out of field until he meets his cute and smart daughter. His vanity morphed into compassion. very touching movie.

The best way to beat loneliness ohu ohu! keep watching movies :) . I wonder man is surrounded by so many relations and yet he comes with his own baggage of loneliness. Every man on this earth is loner and sad. Is it just a feelings? and to what extent it is good for our self ?. So many question running through head. We feel lonely because we expect too much from our self. Its just like when we give something and expect huge return and suddenly we realize oho I haven't got what I deserve and we start doing introspection and gradually open up the Pandora's box of weird things/feelings. Ahhhhh may be! Lets give freedom to our feelings and assumed that things do not turn out exactly the way we want in our life.

God bless the souls of those people who are constantly working hard to offer new entertainment to people like us. Imagine the world without real entertainment

Cheers