Deceptive mind

God created heaven, hell, earth, seven seas, sky, animals and humans too. One day man said to god," You have given extraordinary skills to animals to survive but you haven't given me anything". " I don't have strong jaws to crush bones, Strong legs to run, no body hairs to cover myself from heat and cold". God said," I have given you brain". and man made the most of his brain and became supreme species on earth.

But God gave something else which was not in control of human beings " feelings" or you can say complex feelings produced by tiny brain which can drive human crazy at one point of time.

A naive boy sitting alone holding his head with both hands, trying to figure out the purpose of his life. He was more concerned about his future rather than present. An old man passing by looked at the boy and tried to start off conversation. "You look sad my boy". Wisest of wise asked. Boy replied very innocently," If every hing is prewritten why can't I forsee my future". "Why can't god reveals the things which are bound to occur". An old man asked," Why do you want to see your future?". Boy said," So that I can get myself prepared for the things that are coming and possibly I can alter my future,". Boy's eyes was teeming with questions. Old man replied," if anything good coming, that will be a pleasant surprise to you and if anything worse coming, you will be more worried before even they occur and you will destroy your present. Its only the lord who has the power to reveal the things because he is free from longings. A man should live in his present and not worried about whats going to happen in future. If we live in present we are just making our future better". Rest leave it on God.

Thousand years ago, in a distant land, there was a man who could forsee the future. He was thrown into dungeon by the king because he had fortold unplesant death of his king. He started spending sleepless nights as he himself became aware of his impending death. what could be worse for a man than life was to be taken by his own blood. Dooms day came and he was murdered cold blood by his own son and when his soul met with an angel and asked it was the gift given to me by my lord but why on earth it happened. Angel replied," something is better left alone. when person tries to find answers for everything it becomes poison and that poison kills human beings".

Its is said

yesterday is History
Tomorrow is Mystery
Today is Gift that's why its called "Present"

Old man replies," There are three kind of people in this universe. One who listen to his brain. He achieves fame in short span of time but that fame is not long lasting. Second who listen to his heart & brain, those kind of people are confused and keep fighting with themsleves through out their life, Third who listen to their heart fame and success come slowly but these kind of people are the happiest person on earth and remembered by the universe after their death". But one should learn to speak with heart. Heart can be deceptive sometimes and gives you painfultime......

10 things I did in Auckland

1 ran away from routine and depressed schedule.
2 ate Japanese food in Auckland. (Yuk one of the daring decison I took)
3 experienced the launch of GTR Skyline from 0 to 70 Km in 2 seconds. That was lifetime experience.
4 Drank all night long for no particular reasons. (shit stuff ,no other option)
5 overlooked the north shore lighting at night.
6 watched moving stars at night.
7 missed important people in Auckland.
8 played some thrilling games on xbox.
9 tasted delicious kabab
10 returned home :((((((((((

Here I'm

It seems I have started enjoying my work. May be new changes at work place have given me another opportunity. I have been selected for Crew Trainer and manager program. A new restaurant manager has seen my potential. Last year I was given similar position but somehow I couldn't make it as I was lost somehwere. I'm just concentrating on one aspect of my life now.

When I'm on shift I don't have to think about anything else but once I finish I find myself in a fix again. I just don't feel like coming back to my room. I wish there were some other place where I could go to divert myself.

Today I finished my cafe shift midnight and clocked out and ended up sitting in crew room for half an hour, thinking should I go or not?

Well here I'm!!!!!!!

Love & Time

Well It seems I'm running out of words these days. I write anything which is not relevant for others.

Well I found this story on internet, one of my favourite short stories website. I think I should share with you guys. so It goes like this


Once upon a time, there was an island where all the feelings lived: Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all of the others, including Love. One day it was announced to the feelings that the island would sink, so all constructed boats and left. Except for Love.

Love was the only one who stayed. Love wanted to hold out until the last possible moment.

When the island had almost sunk, Love decided to ask for help.

Richness was passing by Love in a grand boat. Love said,
"Richness, can you take me with you?"
Richness answered, "No, I can't. There is a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no place here for you."

Love decided to ask Vanity who was also passing by in a beautiful vessel. "Vanity, please help me!"
"I can't help you, Love. You are all wet and might damage my boat," Vanity answered.

Sadness was close by so Love asked, "Sadness, let me go with you."
"Oh . . . Love, I am so sad that I need to be by myself!"

Happiness passed by Love, too, but she was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her.

Suddenly, there was a voice, "Come, Love, I will take you." It was an elder. So blessed and overjoyed, Love even forgot to ask the elder where they were going. When they arrived at dry land, the elder went her own way. Realizing how much was owed the elder,

Love asked Knowledge, another elder, "Who Helped me?"
"It was Time," Knowledge answered.
"Time?" asked Love. "But why did Time help me?"
Knowledge smiled with deep wisdom and answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how valuable Love is."

just a bittersweet feelings!!!!!

Lately I have been feeling that feeling of sadness that always creeps up on me when something is over. It's always the same. It's a time when I know I should be proud of myself, and happy that it is finally over, but I'm not. When things start to come to an end I start to panic and about a week after they are officially over I am crying myself to sleep at night wondering why I feel so sad all of the sudden. Endings are so bittersweet sometimes.



I guess I'm on to the next chapter in my life.
Being myself ?
... and I'm not sad anymore.

30 things I wanna tell you

1 You always say, I never get angry,well I let you know when I'll don't you worry.
2 You don't beleive in emotions & love but deep inside I know you are attached to me somehow.
3 I never forget first day I met you Its still like yesterday. I don't know about you.
4 When I wake up every morning, first thing I do, I check my cell phone hoping to find you.
5 Its time to face the reality no matter how unplesant it is. but easy said than done.
6 I miss you
7 Finally my life is joke to you.
8 Well its not enough to be a good, kind hearted person.
9 Yes I'm weird, I don't see any rudeness in you.
10 I'm ready to change myself for you and I'll.
11 I know whatever I say is all immature, but I mean it.
12 I always pray to god and say Please don't let me hurt you in any way.
13 Why I find you deep inside me always.
14 Best thing that makes me relaxed, smell of your perfume. Sometimes I smell it and look around but don't find you.
15 You are sober and naive, thats not enough, try to understand this bad wild world.
16 Your heart is very innocent. God bless you
17 I'm desperate to have you back.
18 Be strong and keep your self motivated.
19 I'm with you during your bad times just share with me whats in your heart.
20 Soon hard time will be over and its said "there is always a light at the end of the tunnel.
21 You will find me other side of the tunnel.
22 I'm still holding your hands remember.
23 Don't be reckless with your heart, let love heals you.
24 I find myself soo relaxed with you but its okay you find my company uneasy.
25 You have incredible potential, Just try to exploit it.
26 You are source of courage for others, thanks it helped me a lot.
27 O God give me enough strentgh and courage to bestow all happiness on you.
28 My mission is you, only you.
29 I'LL WAIT FOR YOU
30 I LOVE YOU AND KEEP LOVING YOU NO MATTER HOW YOU TREAT ME.

Will someone lift me up?

We all get overwhelmed once in a while by ever increasing demands of today’s competitive world and too many worries pulling us down. Paradox: Never relationships were so webbed and fragile when getting connected is at the click of Social networks like Orkut, Facebook, Bebo, Twiter and Flickr and so on. I am no exception to this falling and falling hard on ground:

“I am down with day to day worry,
Nothing is accomplished even when tasks are done in hurry.
I am loner than ever and before,
Even though friends on my facebook grow more and more.”

Nothing seems working in my life from years now. I am always at wrong place, doing wrong things, hanging out with misfits. I am just confusing myself and people around me. Irony of times, I am directionless and I am guiding people to achieve their goals with greater success. I really don’t know how I do it but I do it right for others. Can someone pleas help me lifting from this great fall, that is unforgivable? I don’t know how it feels to be successful:

“Day, month and years are passing by,
I had fallen a great fall, why?
Pain is every growing in my anxious heart,
People smile and pass by, what a learnt art?”

God can’t bear my great fall and send wisest trainer, someone whispers in my ears: “Get up, lift yourself! It was not your fault that people and adverse circumstances pulled you down but it will be only and only your fault if you decided to be on ground for long. Lifting yourself is solely your responsibility so stop asking for help and lift yourself. Only and only you can do it.” Suddenly thousand lights seem enlightening my soul:

“I can see, see clearly my way now,
I know for sure, I can grow and grow how.
Why I kept waiting for help from others,
When lifting me was not task for sisters and brothers.”

I have lifted myself now, with full faith in my God. Actually I am flying and even sky is not my limit. I am filled with new zeal and hope for tomorrow. My eyes are sparkling with dreams of future that are in my reach. I am not scared to fall as now I know how to lift myself, no matter how many times I have the great fall. The greater is my fall, the greater are my chances to bounce back with ever increasing determination to succeed. Failures don’t scare me anymore as they are teachers in disguise, making me stronger and capable to take on anything in this life. The more struggles are on my way to achieve my goal, more sure I am to succeed as been quoted by Robert Schuller in his famous book “Tough times never last, but tough people do!” So never give up your dreams and never throw away tomorrow.

Someone words changed my life, hope it do same for you too. God bless.

“I have found my new grounds,
Where I can go endlessly and in rounds,
I have found my new sky,
Nothing can stop me from going high and fly”