just another chore

Tuesday is my off day and I don't have much to do. Its damn hot outside and can,t go outside. so i decide to do something productive. Well I start with drawing room setting. It has been messy and I guess no one is taking intitaive to spruce up my drawing. Well we are four of us and I beleive two of us don,t beleive in cleanliness.

I vacum the kitchen floor and change the setting. Here is the outcome.....

Surjit Pattar

Those who love to read punjabi literature and poetry, know Surjit Pattar as refined poet. I remember I used to read his poetry when I was in 10th grade. It was in my curriculum.

I'm satisfied that sketch is finished and feel good feeling is taking over me. At last I managed to draw something meaningful.

"MEIN RAAHAN TE NAHI TURDA ,
MEIN TURDA HA TE RAAH BaNNDE NE"


Happy sketching

My Driving License

Its been more than one year in New Zealand and I have been driving with my "Indian License" since then. If cops ever catch me, I will end up paying 600 dollars fine. I have gone through "alcohol Breathe" test several time and I always keep my finger crossed, hoping I don't have to present my Driving License luckly no cops has ever asked for it.

well tonight going to be my study night. I got my "Road code book" and tomorrow I'm going to take written test. This time I'm damn serious.

There are several things on my mind before I go back to my country. My samsung LCD is on its way, sales person says there is slight delay in shipment. well I have to wait for another two weeks this means I'll enjoy watching TV for another 3 weeks and after that I have to put it on trademe.com for selling :(. Unwisly investment!!!.

I got one month annual leave which is to be used as vacation. My work mates have finally come to know my plans and expecting me to come back in one month and my restaurant manager is alluring me with good profile and always taunt me "You have to come back or else he will come to India to kill me if I don't come back" but It depends on my mood, if I find it easy in India I may or may not come back.

I got to go now

to be continued.........

It is by chance that we met, by choice that we became friends

Life is strange and keep playing all the time. There are some who become our small world. We will not be left alone and will be helped when needed, only that time we come know the true personality of people. But there are some , we don't even know at all and don't expect anything from them but they come into our life as a Guruji's blessings.

The day my brother left Hamilton in search of job in Auckland, I was on my own. It was true test of my patience. My brother was out of job living with my cousin in Auckland and I was working day in day out to support my daily expenses. I had to send money to my brother so that he could easily commute in the city, buy food etc. Aftre spending one month in Auckland he ran out of luck and came back home. His Visa was on the verge of expiry. It was hard time for both of us. I was mentally unstable but I knew one thing in my heart that help was on its way but how we going to grab it, I had no idea.

During those day my brother used to visit his friend's home and there we met two guys . They came into our life as a lord's blessing and things started improving. That unknown fellow took pain and did everything he could do. When he saw my brother, he himself got dragged to his old past time when he was on his own.

He knows one guy who runs very good restaurant in Hamilton. He asked help from him and my brother started going there, hoping he would help him in his Visa. My brother used to work for him free but at last moment the guy backed out leaving us panic. He ended up his relation with restaurant guy for us and gave him like anything over the phone. But it is said presence of some people in your life are like blessings. One Kiwi lady helped my brother in his visa even though she didn't pay anything what my brother did for her. acceptable!!!!

We are still together and they never spend their day without us.

I beleive earth could be heaven for everyone if we stop deceving each other and promote trust.

Truly great friends are hard to find, difficult to leave, and impossible to forget.

"Miter Piyare Nu"

There is so much to learn from Guru Gobind Singh ji. Most of us look to guru ji as our tenth God but those who have studied his biography know that he was true messenger of lord. He was not a God but true saint. To support my point Guru ji himself has made very clear in his "Dasam Granth"

"Those who call me God, will fall into the deep pit of hell. Regard me as one of his slaves and have no doubt whatever about it. I am a servant of the Supreme Being; and have come to behold the wonderful drama of life."

For himself he used the word 'slave' or servant of God.

Sri Guru Gobind Singh Marg is a symbol of unity among human race. It is a centre of Universal brotherhood.

Anyways we know our history and I don't want to dwell on it. The most interesting trait of Guru ji is his poetic quality. Guru ji used to have 50 poets in his Darbar.


When 40 brave Sikhs fought Valiantly in mud fort. They were ready to lay their lives for Guruji. They were reciting Jaap Sahib. On the other hand Mughal forces, banking in their number were sure of their victory. It was an unequal fight.

For whole day a fierce battle took place, on one side a batalian of Punj Piyare comes out of mud fort for fight, with slogan of victory "Bole So Nihal-Sat Sri Akal" and on the other side 10 Lakh people made a formidable picture. Sahibzada Ajit Singh and Sahibzada Jujhar Singh attained martyrdom and at the same time father bowed his head in gratitude to the almightly.

When it was silence all around, battlefield covered with sorrow and dead bodies, when night fell, Panj Pyaras in mud fort ordered Guruji to leave the fort as his life is still valuable for the Panth. Guruji left the 'Garhi' but not quietly. He was not coward and he did not want anybody to make the mockery of his Khalsa by telling him that his Guru had run away from battlefield.He blew "Narsingha" and challenged the mughal forces thrice and their challenges put mughal forces at loss. They killed their own fellow brothers in utter confusion.

Clothes became rags due to shrubs and bushes in forest and fields. Feet bled due to walking barefoot on hard stones, thorn and thistles Guruji slept on earth in a garden in Macchiwara with his unsheathed sword. Even then meditating upon the name of God, master had a dialogue with the Lord.


"Mitr Pyare Nu Hal Murida Da Kehna"
(tell my beloved lord, plight of his humble follower)

"Tudh Bin Rog Rajjain Da Odan Nag Niwasa De Rehna"
(without you, wearing of quilt is torment, residing in a house is like living among snakes)

"Sool Surahi Khanjjar Pyala Bing Kasaiaan Da Sehna"
(A wine flask is like a spike, a wineglass hurt like a dagger, all this without you like a blow from butcher's knife)

"Yaarre Da Saanu Satthar Changa Bhatth Kheriyan Da Rehna"
(Its much more preferable to sit on a bare ground in mourning with my lord than to live in palaces, which are like furnance without you)


These lines I believe can make every one cry. This is called true love. This is called extraordinary poetry and I believe no poet on earth has written such a true love, faith and sorrow.

"Waheguru ji ka Khalsa
waheguru ji ki Fateh"

pitty of war

These images show the innocent casuality in afghanistan.

My first Hot Chocolate of the day

These days I'm trying my best to become good in coffees and I guess I have done what was expected from me. My customers are happy, my Management is happy and as far as my working habits are concerned I'm happy.

While working I met one white guy, He was looking very educated and some one from behind yelled my name "Hey Raj" and looked back and one of my crew member "Taylor" said," this guy wants hot chocolate" I started making coffee for him. While I was busy giving my best short, white man said," So Raj means ruler". I said," kinda but my full name is Rajwinder Panesar. ," So you are Libra and whatever you do, you do with dedication and from heart," he said. In the meantime I finished making coffee and started conversing with him.

He said," I can tell you, you are not happy from inside because of your dedication. It may be at work place or may be in your personal life". I said," How come you say like this". He didn't answer and walked away with coffee. He was sitting right in front of me, reading newspaper and his curious nature left me with so many questions thinking am I open book to read?

anyways some times we meet funny people and I believe we keep on meeting them.

'sweet n sour memories'

Teg Salh

Recently I received some beautiful pictures from my sister.

every timeI look into your eyes

What are you waiting for,

you with your sad eyes?

Say goodbye to cruelest memory and sow a seed of new hope.


What are you waiting for,

you with your sad eyes?

The voices of caution, open your eyes.


What are you waiting for,

you with your sad eyes?

love is all around and recognise the faces who are ready to sacrifice for these eyes.

What are you waiting for,

Deceptive mind

God created heaven, hell, earth, seven seas, sky, animals and humans too. One day man said to god," You have given extraordinary skills to animals to survive but you haven't given me anything". " I don't have strong jaws to crush bones, Strong legs to run, no body hairs to cover myself from heat and cold". God said," I have given you brain". and man made the most of his brain and became supreme species on earth.

But God gave something else which was not in control of human beings " feelings" or you can say complex feelings produced by tiny brain which can drive human crazy at one point of time.

A naive boy sitting alone holding his head with both hands, trying to figure out the purpose of his life. He was more concerned about his future rather than present. An old man passing by looked at the boy and tried to start off conversation. "You look sad my boy". Wisest of wise asked. Boy replied very innocently," If every hing is prewritten why can't I forsee my future". "Why can't god reveals the things which are bound to occur". An old man asked," Why do you want to see your future?". Boy said," So that I can get myself prepared for the things that are coming and possibly I can alter my future,". Boy's eyes was teeming with questions. Old man replied," if anything good coming, that will be a pleasant surprise to you and if anything worse coming, you will be more worried before even they occur and you will destroy your present. Its only the lord who has the power to reveal the things because he is free from longings. A man should live in his present and not worried about whats going to happen in future. If we live in present we are just making our future better". Rest leave it on God.

Thousand years ago, in a distant land, there was a man who could forsee the future. He was thrown into dungeon by the king because he had fortold unplesant death of his king. He started spending sleepless nights as he himself became aware of his impending death. what could be worse for a man than life was to be taken by his own blood. Dooms day came and he was murdered cold blood by his own son and when his soul met with an angel and asked it was the gift given to me by my lord but why on earth it happened. Angel replied," something is better left alone. when person tries to find answers for everything it becomes poison and that poison kills human beings".

Its is said

yesterday is History
Tomorrow is Mystery
Today is Gift that's why its called "Present"

Old man replies," There are three kind of people in this universe. One who listen to his brain. He achieves fame in short span of time but that fame is not long lasting. Second who listen to his heart & brain, those kind of people are confused and keep fighting with themsleves through out their life, Third who listen to their heart fame and success come slowly but these kind of people are the happiest person on earth and remembered by the universe after their death". But one should learn to speak with heart. Heart can be deceptive sometimes and gives you painfultime......

10 things I did in Auckland

1 ran away from routine and depressed schedule.
2 ate Japanese food in Auckland. (Yuk one of the daring decison I took)
3 experienced the launch of GTR Skyline from 0 to 70 Km in 2 seconds. That was lifetime experience.
4 Drank all night long for no particular reasons. (shit stuff ,no other option)
5 overlooked the north shore lighting at night.
6 watched moving stars at night.
7 missed important people in Auckland.
8 played some thrilling games on xbox.
9 tasted delicious kabab
10 returned home :((((((((((

Here I'm

It seems I have started enjoying my work. May be new changes at work place have given me another opportunity. I have been selected for Crew Trainer and manager program. A new restaurant manager has seen my potential. Last year I was given similar position but somehow I couldn't make it as I was lost somehwere. I'm just concentrating on one aspect of my life now.

When I'm on shift I don't have to think about anything else but once I finish I find myself in a fix again. I just don't feel like coming back to my room. I wish there were some other place where I could go to divert myself.

Today I finished my cafe shift midnight and clocked out and ended up sitting in crew room for half an hour, thinking should I go or not?

Well here I'm!!!!!!!

Love & Time

Well It seems I'm running out of words these days. I write anything which is not relevant for others.

Well I found this story on internet, one of my favourite short stories website. I think I should share with you guys. so It goes like this


Once upon a time, there was an island where all the feelings lived: Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all of the others, including Love. One day it was announced to the feelings that the island would sink, so all constructed boats and left. Except for Love.

Love was the only one who stayed. Love wanted to hold out until the last possible moment.

When the island had almost sunk, Love decided to ask for help.

Richness was passing by Love in a grand boat. Love said,
"Richness, can you take me with you?"
Richness answered, "No, I can't. There is a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no place here for you."

Love decided to ask Vanity who was also passing by in a beautiful vessel. "Vanity, please help me!"
"I can't help you, Love. You are all wet and might damage my boat," Vanity answered.

Sadness was close by so Love asked, "Sadness, let me go with you."
"Oh . . . Love, I am so sad that I need to be by myself!"

Happiness passed by Love, too, but she was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her.

Suddenly, there was a voice, "Come, Love, I will take you." It was an elder. So blessed and overjoyed, Love even forgot to ask the elder where they were going. When they arrived at dry land, the elder went her own way. Realizing how much was owed the elder,

Love asked Knowledge, another elder, "Who Helped me?"
"It was Time," Knowledge answered.
"Time?" asked Love. "But why did Time help me?"
Knowledge smiled with deep wisdom and answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how valuable Love is."

just a bittersweet feelings!!!!!

Lately I have been feeling that feeling of sadness that always creeps up on me when something is over. It's always the same. It's a time when I know I should be proud of myself, and happy that it is finally over, but I'm not. When things start to come to an end I start to panic and about a week after they are officially over I am crying myself to sleep at night wondering why I feel so sad all of the sudden. Endings are so bittersweet sometimes.



I guess I'm on to the next chapter in my life.
Being myself ?
... and I'm not sad anymore.

30 things I wanna tell you

1 You always say, I never get angry,well I let you know when I'll don't you worry.
2 You don't beleive in emotions & love but deep inside I know you are attached to me somehow.
3 I never forget first day I met you Its still like yesterday. I don't know about you.
4 When I wake up every morning, first thing I do, I check my cell phone hoping to find you.
5 Its time to face the reality no matter how unplesant it is. but easy said than done.
6 I miss you
7 Finally my life is joke to you.
8 Well its not enough to be a good, kind hearted person.
9 Yes I'm weird, I don't see any rudeness in you.
10 I'm ready to change myself for you and I'll.
11 I know whatever I say is all immature, but I mean it.
12 I always pray to god and say Please don't let me hurt you in any way.
13 Why I find you deep inside me always.
14 Best thing that makes me relaxed, smell of your perfume. Sometimes I smell it and look around but don't find you.
15 You are sober and naive, thats not enough, try to understand this bad wild world.
16 Your heart is very innocent. God bless you
17 I'm desperate to have you back.
18 Be strong and keep your self motivated.
19 I'm with you during your bad times just share with me whats in your heart.
20 Soon hard time will be over and its said "there is always a light at the end of the tunnel.
21 You will find me other side of the tunnel.
22 I'm still holding your hands remember.
23 Don't be reckless with your heart, let love heals you.
24 I find myself soo relaxed with you but its okay you find my company uneasy.
25 You have incredible potential, Just try to exploit it.
26 You are source of courage for others, thanks it helped me a lot.
27 O God give me enough strentgh and courage to bestow all happiness on you.
28 My mission is you, only you.
29 I'LL WAIT FOR YOU
30 I LOVE YOU AND KEEP LOVING YOU NO MATTER HOW YOU TREAT ME.

Will someone lift me up?

We all get overwhelmed once in a while by ever increasing demands of today’s competitive world and too many worries pulling us down. Paradox: Never relationships were so webbed and fragile when getting connected is at the click of Social networks like Orkut, Facebook, Bebo, Twiter and Flickr and so on. I am no exception to this falling and falling hard on ground:

“I am down with day to day worry,
Nothing is accomplished even when tasks are done in hurry.
I am loner than ever and before,
Even though friends on my facebook grow more and more.”

Nothing seems working in my life from years now. I am always at wrong place, doing wrong things, hanging out with misfits. I am just confusing myself and people around me. Irony of times, I am directionless and I am guiding people to achieve their goals with greater success. I really don’t know how I do it but I do it right for others. Can someone pleas help me lifting from this great fall, that is unforgivable? I don’t know how it feels to be successful:

“Day, month and years are passing by,
I had fallen a great fall, why?
Pain is every growing in my anxious heart,
People smile and pass by, what a learnt art?”

God can’t bear my great fall and send wisest trainer, someone whispers in my ears: “Get up, lift yourself! It was not your fault that people and adverse circumstances pulled you down but it will be only and only your fault if you decided to be on ground for long. Lifting yourself is solely your responsibility so stop asking for help and lift yourself. Only and only you can do it.” Suddenly thousand lights seem enlightening my soul:

“I can see, see clearly my way now,
I know for sure, I can grow and grow how.
Why I kept waiting for help from others,
When lifting me was not task for sisters and brothers.”

I have lifted myself now, with full faith in my God. Actually I am flying and even sky is not my limit. I am filled with new zeal and hope for tomorrow. My eyes are sparkling with dreams of future that are in my reach. I am not scared to fall as now I know how to lift myself, no matter how many times I have the great fall. The greater is my fall, the greater are my chances to bounce back with ever increasing determination to succeed. Failures don’t scare me anymore as they are teachers in disguise, making me stronger and capable to take on anything in this life. The more struggles are on my way to achieve my goal, more sure I am to succeed as been quoted by Robert Schuller in his famous book “Tough times never last, but tough people do!” So never give up your dreams and never throw away tomorrow.

Someone words changed my life, hope it do same for you too. God bless.

“I have found my new grounds,
Where I can go endlessly and in rounds,
I have found my new sky,
Nothing can stop me from going high and fly”

"Jagdeya Akha dey Supnay"

HUMARE DOSTE PHULO KE TARHA NA HO,

JO EK BAR KILE OUR MURJAH JAYE,

BALKE KANTO KE TARHA HO JE EK BAR CHUBHE ,TO DO BAR YAAD AYE………..


We started to pursue our dreams together. We started to follow our common path and he took lead and left me behind. Well no worries I don't care about what he does. But there is only one thing which reminds me and that is his poetry and story telling ability.

He used to sing poetry and beleive me I used to find every reason to stop him or tried to pretend I'm lsitening but inside my mind I would somewhere else. But then He wrote one beautiful lines.

"Sar kar liya jinna rava nu, ajj dil ohna toh hataash hai"
"Menu ajj fer ik navi manzil dee talash hai"

That day a new refined poet born and he never looked back. I salute to his poetry. I wish I could write like him well I have tried to immitate his story telling skills.

Here is the link to his blog:-

http://mycreativeinside.blogspot.com

I Will be Your Soul

My soul
when inside you are hurting
and only I know
I wish the forces of nature
were at my command
I would reverse time
and make you smile

when deep inside you
a storm is raging
and your soul is but a boat
upon the lonely seas
I want to calm the waves
and bring you home

I am always here if you need me
to cry with you if you need me
to laugh with you
to pray with you
to run with you
to live life with you
I will never leave you

Gupta or Shrama of 2000-2002 class

Why "gone days" are always beautiful. Have you ever pondered on it? When we are kid, we desperately want to be an adult. When we are in school, we are in great rush to complete our school days and embrace freedom and when we are in college, we want to end up college's days so that we can earn money. But when we go through all these faces and finally arrive at certain point, we turn back and start cherishing "gone days" day in day out. Funny humans.

Well I'm not exception here, I think the same way others do. I was chatting with one of my class mate and we started recalling our good college's days. All of sudden we realized that we didn't know the names of most of the students who studied with us. Well She had good memory and went on naming most of the students. Then we stuck up on two names and we were not sure whether they were "Gupta" or "Sharma" lolz.

When we finished our MBA, eveyone was in great rush to find decent job and we didn't realize that we had become a part of race. Those golden days, when our class was divided into two group. We would look for every reason to start fight with other but now I beleive those were silly reasons.

Class of 2000.

Vivek Garg
Neeti Bansal
Shilpi Aggarwal
Subreena Bullar
Rajwinder Kaur
Karandeep Singh
Taranjeet Singh
Tejinder Singh
Manish
Manish Bansal
Baljeet Singh
Sachin Garg
Vandana Bansal
Amrik Singh
Payal Garg
Prahbat Kumar Jha
Vikram Sharma
Jagdeep Singh Virdi
Rohit Kataria
Navdeep Saini
Aman Kapoor
Ravneet kaur

"The Pencil Story"

Some times I feel like reading short stories for children. I try my best to find them on google and luckly I found this beautiful and inspiring story of "Pencils"

I'm going to put it here and if you wanna read more similar stories , here is the link http://www.indianchild.com/short_stories.htm


The Pencil Maker took the pencil aside, just before putting him into the box.

"There are 5 things you need to know," he told the pencil, "Before I send you out into the world. Always remember them and never forget, and you will become the best pencil you can be."

"One: You will be able to do many great things, but only if you allow yourself to be held in Someone's hand."

"Two: You will experience a painful sharpening from time to time, but you'll need it to become a better pencil."

"Three: You will be able to correct any mistakes you might make."

"Four: The most important part of you will always be what's inside."

"And Five: On every surface you are used on, you must leave your mark. No matter what the condition, you must continue to write."

The pencil understood and promised to remember, and went into the box with purpose in its heart.


Now replacing the place of the pencil with you. Always remember them and never forget, and you will become the best person you can be.

One: You will be able to do many great things, but only if you allow yourself to be held in God's hand. And allow other human beings to access you for the many gifts you possess.

Two: You will experience a painful sharpening from time to time, by going through various problems in life, but you'll need it to become a stronger person.

Three: You will be able to correct any mistakes you might make.

Four: The most important part of you will always be what's on the inside.

And Five: On every surface you walk through, you must leave your mark. No matter what the situation, you must continue to do your duties.



Allow this parable on the pencil to encourage you to know that you are a special person and only you can fulfill the purpose to which you were born to accomplish.

Never allow yourself to get discouraged and think that your life is insignificant and cannot make a change.

Most loving and giving but yet ignored!!!!!!!!!!!

How often we ignore the relationships around us? Sometimes we never care and simply walk away as if those relations hold no importance for us. Man's ignorance can be devastating or can be helpful to lead normal life. Our little mind thinks a lot and more thinking means more conclusions and more conclusions means more confusion and process goes on until everything gets so garbled and confused that we find it hard to break free.Well to support my point, I tell you short but sad story of this boy who has been pampered child of his family. He lost one of the most valuable thing of his life and I wish he could understand this loss.

When he was growing up his family provided everything he wished for. His father had visited almost all the countries and finally got settled in big city in Punjab. Everything was going OK until one day boy couldn't pass his 8th grade exams and he met with an negative feedback from all the relatives & friends and it was the major setback to his high school studies.

Somehow he cleared every exams after that and got admission in professional course. His mother was reincarnation of god. I had never seen her yelling at anyone and she used to say " God is great and he knows our hearts and our wishes are take care by by him, only we have to keep faith in his deeds". she wanted her son to be successful just like any mother wants her son to be successful.

One day the boy went missing for 4 days and his family was in trouble. His father did everything to find his whereabouts but no luck. His mother's tears were unstoppable and his sister was numb out of fear. I guess when everything seems impossible, god gives us hope and way to make impossible things possible. On 5th day he called up his family from unknown place and wanted to come home. He came home that day and slept whole day but now he was changed personality. He was careless and family had no value in his life. His mother stopped arguing with him may be she was afraid of loosing him again and I guess he started taking advantage of this relaxation.

This boy adopted disastrous way of living after that incident. He was into drinking, drugs and to make matters worse, started hanging out with bad company. He was behaving as if he wanted to take revenge from whole world for making fun of him when he couldn't’t pass even small obstacle. Definitely he needed help and his mom tried every possible thing to make him happy. It is said," We normally ignore those who are very close to us, ready to do anything for us. His mom was dying every minute seeing her apple of eye getting into wrong track of his life but she didn’t say anything to him because she couldn't’t bear him running away again. She was just living the greatest truth, like we all do, when we love someone, we never want to lose them and for that we even close our eyes to something bad done by our loved ones.

She cried in silence, sometimes she used to talk to me and even today I feel as if I couldn't do much though I used to give her hope for better future of her beloved son. All and all, she was great mom that anyone can be proud of but her bad luck, her very son never cared for her even though she kept showering her love day and night. I still remember her peaceful face and our last chat and soothing hug when I moved overseas. She sneaked Rs 50 note into my pocket and said its a love from your second mother.

The biggest shock that sent shudder to my spine was news of this great mom passing away as she could no longer bear her son falling prey to bad way of living as her dream was better future of her son. Her death was peaceful, one fine morning she couldn't open her eyes. Now this fellow repents day and night but I wish he must have paid respect to his mom while she was alive. If not for his bad behaviour, this great mom would been alive and still loving him all the more.

So question here is why we all are in such a rush of life that we totally ignore people who care for us. All they need is little respect and love for them. I think it’s not that hard to love and value such precious people in our lives.

I request you all to just stop for a while and have a look around, are you so busy with materialistic things that you are ignoring important relations in your lives like you mom, dad, brothers and sisters, grandparents, your loved ones and your friends? I hope none of you have to repent the way this boy has to go through now. I pray this mom’s soul rests in peace and we all learn from this son’s story.

So what you are waiting for – Just take few minutes out in your busy lives to acknowledge the precious people who care for you. It does’t cost anything but your gains will be many fold.

Now pick up the phone and call straight way to your mom, dad, friends and your precious loved one and tell them how much you care for them.

Mind vs Places

Places have great impact on our lives.Places can alter our personality, mind and even body structure. The way we think and behave is governed by places to some extent. Thats why we feel relaxed when we visit any religious place and feel upset where something wrong has happened. I believe places breathe there not like bricks and walls breathe, but the aura of humans who are living or have lived there breathe. Energy or aura gathered by bricks and walls is reflected back somehow and when we stay there that energy or aura clashes with our energy. Four walls which have witnessed the constant fighting, yelling and bloodshed are bound to transmit a negative aura. On the contrary, those places where artists, saints and good souls dwell transmit soothing energy which forces us to go deep into ourself.

And there are some places that turn out negative with course of time because somehting happens to you and you start perceving your surroundings from a different perspective resulting in negative energy. And there are some places which never let you go even if you try hard to run away from those walls. Maybe our mind is obsessed with irrelevant things which never let us think about ourself when we live in those places. We remain busy thinking about what's not important to us.

I had never experinced such kind of situations, but I got a chance to experience it. I used to live in a hostel at Dey street, a tiny room just like a prison cell. Then my brother came down from Auckland to stay with me. I started experiencing bizaare things around me. I felt like I'm lethargic and don't wanna do anything the whole day. I never used to sleep at night and during day time I used to spend most of my time outside. I wanted to run away from that place ,but it seemed that those four walls had chained me and I found it hard to break away. Nohting was going in my favour. I spent one year there and in the end when it was getting from bad to worse , I had to force open from that claustrophobia. Such is the power of places. Those funny places!

When you contruct a house, spare one room where you can sit alone and gather your exhausted energy. Decorate the room with some good indoor green plants, paint the walls with soothing colours like white. Keep some good literature and holy books. A place in there you follow your passionate hobby. Thats your space, your territory and your domain and thats one place you don't want to be invaded.

The world in my wallet

There is an old saying " find a penny, pick it up and all day long you will have good luck". thats how it started. Coin collection is really motivating, it entails patience and time.

I remember my first coin, it was dumped in the attic of my village house. It was an old British India coin and I kept it for a long time and it really motivated me to amass more coins. One day I lost that coin and mood shifted to other hobby like collecting stamps and sketching.

One of my friend offered me a coin and currency note one day and my obsession revived. Whenever I visit her, she gives some sort of currency. I have to go a long way to hoard plenty of coins and currency notes.

If you guys have any spare coins or currency note plz do let me know, in turn a deliciously cooked dinner will be on me :)

happy collecting

"we don't belong to this world"

I always wonder, how different is to live your life for someone. What kind of people are they? What kind of thinking do they posses? How much love can they bestow on others? certainly they have beautiful minds and personalities. when we actually discuss the meaning of "content" we end up discussing "satisfaction" but hardly feel the meaning from the heart. But when I picture some great personalities I begin to understand the meaning of "Content". Its certainly divine, patience, stability at every step. Those people are not from an alien world. They belong to a different world and they come into our lives just to teach us how to live our life without jealousy or envy.

I can't help myself talking about some great people who inspire and motivate me all the time.

Well you can find heaps of information on the internet and I'm not going to discuss their biography here, I'm going to jot down some of my feelings when I think about them.

Sobha Singh

He is one of the most respectable figure in the world of art/painting. When I think about him, he gives me the feeling of "divinity" as if god himself has sent him on this earth so that he could portrait the incarnation of "God". A soothing personality. Time seems stagnant around his aura. Every stroke on his canvass reflects the compassion, patience & respect for God. I salute this man from the core of my heart.

Must visit his official website http://www.sobhasinghartist.com/

MS Randhawa.

He was the Vice Chancellor of Punjab Agriculure University Ludhiana. This man has done a lot for humanity. Very educated and a true gentleman. My cousin gave me his biography to read and when I was going through his book I found myself surrounded by a subtle yet powerful energy. Life treated this man as if he was an outcast. when I think about this man, I feel nothing comes in life as easy as you think , first you have to deserve it and then desire it.

I quote one paragraph here which still looms over me.

"He was sick and didn't have money to pay his rent, so he went to "patwari' to request him so that his rent and other dues could be waived off but "patwari' treated him like dirt which left him disappointed. Nothing was going in his favour, sudden demise of his father and unexpected household & study expense left him bewildered and demotivated.

He showed determination and joined ICS in 1934. Now he is sitting in his big flash office and old man enters his office related to some property dispute. when he offered a seat to that old man and made him remind the same scene (when he himself was sitting at an old man's position with folded arms) that old man was shocked because that was the same "patwari", inspite of this he helped him."

His achievments:-

prime personality behind setting up Independence ceremony in 15 august 1947 for Jawahar lal nehru.

Responsible for establishing Chandigarh city.

Responsible for bringing "Green revolution" in Punjab.

Mut visit this link http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mohinder_Singh_Randhawa

Shiv Kumar Batalvi

No doubt this man was not from this world. He came here just to die and in return he gave us one of the most beautiful thoughts which will be cherished in centuries to come. It is said people killed him. He was fond of drinking and smoking and people used to offer these things just to listen his poetry. I agree he had some bad habits but bad habits are acceptable as long as they don't hurt anyone. I feel one should do what one's heart says, the mind can drive us insane.

must visit link
http://www.sadapunjab.com/cv/Literature_On_Punjab/PUNJAB/Shiv_Kumar_Batalvi/index0.html

SHAWSHANK REDEMPTION

I remember, I watched this movie when I was in high school. I couldn't understand even single dialogue then. after many years the same movie was given to me by my friend Prakash here in NZ. thanks to him. you know we got same taste.

Must see movie and I beleive those who can't undertsand the theme of this movie I say they don't have feelings/heart/emotions n list goes on.

Every dialogue tells the story and teaches you a lot.

I'm putting some favourite dialogue of this aweseome movie and i recommend watching this as well

Andy: I had Mr. Mozart to keep me company...(He points and taps his head) It was in here. (And he gestures over his heart) And in here. That's the beauty of music. They can't get that from you. Haven't you ever felt that way about music?...Here's where it makes the most sense. You need it so we don't forget...that there are places in the world that aren't made out of stone, that there's, there's somethin' inside that they can't get to, that they can't touch. It's yours.
Red: What are you talkin' about?
Andy: Hope.
Red: Hope? Let me tell you something, my friend. Hope is a dangerous thing. Hope can drive a man insane. It's got no use on the inside. You'd better get used to that idea.
Andy: Like Brooks did?


Andy: My wife used to say I'm a hard man to know. Like a closed book. Complained about it all the time. She was beautiful. God, I loved her. I just didn't know how to show it, that's all. I killed her, Red. I didn't pull the trigger, but I drove her away and that's why she died - because of me, the way I am.
Red: That don't make you a murderer. Bad husband, maybe. Feel bad about it if you want to, but you didn't pull the trigger.
Andy: No, I didn't. Somebody else did and I wound up in here. Bad luck, I guess


Andy Dufresne, who crawled through a river of s--t and came out clean on the other side. Andy Dufresne, headed for the Pacific. Those of us who knew him best talk about him often. I swear the stuff he pulled. Sometimes it makes me sad, though, Andy being gone. I have to remind myself that some birds aren't meant to be caged. Their feathers are just too bright and when they fly away, the part of you that knows it was a sin to lock them up does rejoice, but still, the place you live in is that much more drab and empty that they're gone. I guess I just miss my friend.


All I do anymore is think of ways to break my parole so maybe they'd send me back. Terrible thing to live in fear. Brooks Hatlen knew it. Knew it all too well. All I want is to be back where things make sense. Where I won't have to be afraid all the time. Only one thing stops me. A promise I made to Andy.


Dear Red,
If you're reading this, you've gotten out. And if you've come this far, maybe you're willing to come a little further. You remember the name of the town, don't you? I could use a good man to help me get my project on wheels. I'll keep an eye out for you and the chessboard ready. Remember, Red. Hope is a good thing, maybe the best of things and no good thing ever dies. I will be hoping that this letter finds you, and finds you well.Your friend,
Andy

must seen movie

This is the end

I'm desperately waiting for nothing.Its a weird kind of wait. Everything is same out there, trees, houses, roads and only change I can see people around me. The place where i stay was more vibrant and noisy in feb 2009.Everything was so exciting everywhere. Tiny room where I used to go to meet my friend down the corridor with my brother and other friends. We used to wait for him to come at night and used to have long chat in car outside his block. well this is the
end of beautiful days.

Wintec days were awesome, heaps of assignment, class presentations and group assignments. Spending nights in hub preparing for exams. Class bunks and doing nothing after that. well this is the end of long ordeal.

Doing closings at work place for almost 8 months.Making fun of each other at work place and enjoying passive smoking in 5 minute breaks before finishing the shift. Well this is the end of those night shifts.

Getting drunk and enjoying late night in clubs. playing cards in room and not caring for neighbours' sleep. Trying hard to save our ass in "asshole" game. well this is the end of day of days.

It hurts to set someone free with whom you were ready to spend rest of life.well this is the end of those long sleepless nights, laughter and soft lies.

Supporting my brother when he needed me most. Supporting me when I needed him most during my hard times.well this is the end of worse financial and hard time.

Its a begining of new day, thats why I'm waiting for nothing, right time will come automatically...

"one night in city"

(Passive Volcano Crator in Auckland)

I get bored so easily with places and surroundings that I need some new excitment everyday. May be my mind has changed or may be I have changed. I was putting up with same old routine for the last couple of weeks and it was killing me. I just wanted to get away and get drunk. so finally I got a chance to celebrate my weekend in Auckland. I been there so many times but this trip was memorable for me. I wanted to taste freedome. A time which is not controlled by any rules. So I got drunk, my friends were drunk and believe me we didn't even know where we were? certainly we were in Auckland. It was awesome night, we were moving from one club to another club. Very next day we went to Mount Eden to see passive volcano crater. It is situated right in the middle of Auckland city and from top of it one can see big crator and Manakau's city center ,airport and long line of sea.

Next I wanna go to "Napier'. I'm just waiting for the right time to come. Napier is known for beautiful drive and ArtDeco style buildings. In 1931, whole city was levelled by massive earthquake and it was re -built. We are planning to hire minibus and we gonna drive that bus all the way to Napier. I just can't wait anymore.

Hamilton to Auckland

Sky City and city center



Harbour

Amill's house



Clubbing Time